wasted...

What would you do if the guy you love so much who used to be a close friend, more than your own life, hates you like hell?
I just had my first heart break so I'm kinda unstable lately. To get over it I treat my friends or eat ice cream or anything sweet. Still....it wasn't enough...not until I stop seeing him...it will never be enough.
I'm not sure anymore how I'm suppose to deal with love again but it made me realize that good memories can hurt too...

What's written in there is our last and final conversation trough text. The red one is his reply.
So fucking hard to be me...